Your scrambled eggs are more eloquent than what I have on the page for your race report…………..which is nothing. Off to remedy that but I needed to channel your writing first.

I have spent the last few days thinking in what your social worker told you: Lowered expectations. Probably is the thing to say, probably is the most rational thing to do, but I do not know if anyone who has the “honor” to live with a serious disease is capable of getting out of bed with the though that today is going to be worst than yesterday.
One of my doctors ordered some blood work last week because she thinks things in my body probably are getting worst. I was in shock because I do not live with the idea that this is progressing, even if I think myself some stuff is getting worst. Well, I am messing up here a bit, but I think that we have the right to think that somehow we will be coming out of this victoriously.

I hope your goals include writing a book.