My heart goes out to you as this horrific illness continues to steal pieces of your life every day. My husband is my caregiver, chief cook and bottle washer. Like you, I hate the loss of my ability to take care of myself, to walk, to cook and clean, and to take care of him. I can see this taking a toll on him as he battles his own health issues. I often day dream of falling asleep and not walking up. I too, am tired of being a burden, and really tired of watching others walk. Or pick up a baby/child. Or go to work!
You write so beautifully, and say what we all wish we could say. Thank you for your bravery. And the reminder that living a longer life is not as important as living a good quality of life. Living longer to love my children longer does not mean loving them better.
Sarah, please know you are so, so loved by so many. I am very sorry your relationship with Rob has been changed from him being your husband, lover, best friend, co-traveler, adventurer, to that of caretaker who is already working a full time job. And trying to parent on top of all of this? Such a lonely process for both of you. You are a beautiful woman, with a beautiful family. Thank you for sharing with us. Praying for you daily.
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